The irony is that we attempt to disown our difficult stories to appear more whole or more acceptable, but our wholeness even our whole heartedness actually depends on the integration of all our experiences, including the falls
– Brené Brown
For years I struggled with addiction, I struggled to stay clean but mostly I struggled being me.
The bottle and the pills helped me to be SOMEONE, (so I thought) I believed they made me, the real me.
As my addiction progressed I had completely forgotten who I was, my truth and I had lost touch with reality, completely disconnected from myself and the world around me.
By the end, I didn’t believe that anything would ever bring me back. I had given up on myself as well as the possibility of ever living a life worth living- If I’m honest, deep down I didn’t want to return, the thought of that scared me more than the darkness itself.
One part of me had accepted it as my faith (it was easier) while the other part of me wished things were different.
I was focusing all my time and energy on being anything but myself and desperately trying to feel anything else but the pain that I was in, that really in hindsight all I was doing was keeping the cycle alive!
By trying to escape the pain, unknown to myself at the time. I was creating more destruction and suffering.
With many outpatient services, treatment centres and hospitalisations along the way as well as amazing teachers, counsellors, healers, and coaches, I began to rediscover myself again at 25 years old, That is when I truly began my personal growth journey and began my path back to self.
HECK, It’s when I began my life!! My second chance at life
It felt like I was seeing, hearing, feeling, and sensing everything for the first time
Everyone on this planet deserves a life of meaning, purpose and joy which will look completely different, to every single one of us. But no matter what path you have walked before and no matter who you think you are
“you have limitless potential to create exactly that and more.”
Our minds are extremely powerful, my mind had me believing all kinds of bullsh!t, There are still some deep rooted old limiting beliefs that I’m still working on today,
that’s how powerful it is. Once our bodies begin to experience the new beliefs which produce empowering, uplifting emotions which naturally our bodies will begin to crave, replacing the old and with conscious work and awareness, you can begin to update your whole mindset and change your life.
I always believed I needed to change myself and everything about me to be successful in life, but it turned out to be the opposite. I needed to embrace my true self, allow my truth to shine and listen to what my soul truly craved to be fulfilled.
"Its not about changing who we are, its about accepting ourselves just as we are and finding what works for us"
GIVE YOURSLF PERMISSION TO BE YOUR AUTHENTIC SELF AND BE FREE
Now I’m healthy free and fulfilled, I’m blessed to be able to walk along side others on their growth journey.
Coaching others on their path to rediscovering themselves and to fulfilment, lights me up on another level. It’s my passion and I can’t wait to help you discover yours and find what lights you up.
Ive been to the bottom more times than I can count, began healing, recovering and reclaimed my power and I believe you can too!